Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Life is simple .. I insist on making it complicated

Hey Fit Fam ....

I know I am suppose to be a motivator. I know you are suppose to come here to find positive thoughts and encouraging messages, but we all have "those days" and last week I had one of those days. This is my tiny little corner of the web .. so I'm going to do a random rant, lol!

I should have known it was going to be one of "those days".  First of all ... it was Monday. Second, I get downstairs and find this.

My mind has been in a million places lately and in my scatter brain fog I guess I forgot to take the chicken out of the oven the night before!  My house didn't burn down because the oven was off (I always turn off the oven and let the chicken sit in there while it cools cause I'm weird about it being really done and I also think doing this gives it a better texture without making it too dry.)

The rest of the day was just ... off. Nothing bad happened. No one was rude to me. I didn't get bad news. I just felt "off" all day. Everything "bothered" me and everything was an "ordeal". I found myself upset that I couldn't make the simplest of decisions. Things that shouldn't matter AT ALL became what felt like these big "life or death" decisions?! If I gave you examples you would think I am coo coo.

The week got better and this week has started off wonderful. We all have those days. They don't make us and shouldn't break us. But it just hit me just a moment ago. The tag line of my blog really is ME. "Life is simple. We insist on making it complicated." -- THIS IS SO ME! I insist on making almost everything more complicated than it needs to be. Not just today. My life in general. I've always thought things were a bigger deal than they actually were, I've always thought the worst in most situations, I've always been detail oriented in the worst way. You see .. I am a imperfect mix of my mom and dad. My dad is a neat freak. Everything is organized and this comes very natural to him. This it the way my brain THINKS. It's what it wants so very badly to be. But I take after my mom in that none of that is really a priority. That isn't a negative trait .. it's just that being perfectly organized isn't something that is a big deal. Her "mess" (which isn't even a mess) is "okay" .. it doesn't bother her.  Me being this "mix" of the two means that I obsess about everything, yet don't have whatever gene it is that all these obsessive compulsive, neat, organized, well thought out people have -- to actually DO it all the way my brain wants me to do it. I'm the person that is obsessed with the Container Store, but has a panic attack thinking of actually executing any of their perfectly organized system. I'm the person that will spend all night on Pinterest looking for ways to better organize my life and then just leave them "pinned" ...  rarely done. What is funny is that my husband thinks I am "super organized" because he is like my mom. To him, this mix is great. I organize our home/life "just enough" without it be obsessive. He should tell my mind that :)

I am no doubt a perfectionist. So I have to remind myself that it's OKAY that these flaws exist.
So what do I do to change this? Nothing. It's a flaw. It's my flaw. I'm human and it's okay. God made me with this very A type personality that is mixed with whatever other trait this is that I have. It's my flaw. I can't change it. But I can work on being better. I can inhale .. exhale .. and remind myself that no one cares if my cabinets are organized or my bills are piled up on the counter. I have to remind myself that with life ... it's all gonna work out one way or the other. I don't need to know how. I don't need to have a master plan. I just need to be grateful for each day and trust HIS plan. Well .. that and have some doTERRA oils on hand, lol. I'm not even kidding. A few drops of Serenity Calming Blend and it's like I've taken a "nerve pill" ;)  I haven't placed my February oil order yet, but I think I'm going to try an oil called InTune. It seems like it would be perfect for me. It helps you stay calm and focused!

Anyway ... if you have related to this blog at all, just remember that we all need to learn to stop making life so complicated. As long as your "flaws" don't hurt you or someone around you ... embrace them!!!  They aren't weaknesses .. they are simply YOU.

Eat Clean. Train Dirty.

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